The second that changes our lives

It’s almost been 2 months since our lives changed in a second and without even a second chance.  We lost our dad, my mom lost her loving husband, and my nieces and nephew lost their papa.  I know i will never be the same person.  I thought my life was finally perfect…i have found the guy i am going to marry, I live 2 minutes from my parents and spent many days and nights with them, and i was hoping to start a family soon.  Now my life went upside down in a second.  My dad won’t get to see me in my dress and walk me down the isle and it sucks so bad planning this without him, i didn’t get to pick his tux out yesterday for him to wear, i will never see my dad again, he will never come to my house again to hangout or just stop in, i won’t pass him on the road anymore,  i won’t see him in the field farming, i won’t go bike riding with him, i don’t get to talk to him whether i need advice or just want to bullshit,  i don’t get to hear his truck pull in the drive way, i won’t get that hug that you never forgot, i will have to tell my kids someday who their papa is and cherish everything about my dad….Its not fair that we didn’t get another second or a second chance nor do we even get why you were taken from our family.  This is just the beginning of a long road ahead without you.  Dad, I hope you know how much we miss you and love you.  There is not a second that goes by that i am not thinking about him.